until my I truly understand Marilyn Monroe’s first birthday, in all her beautiful and painful glory. As far as these things go, it’s not a very happy birthday. That year 209 Already suffered three humiliations: convalescence, loss of fertility, and the breakup everyone expected (hard to know if it was a better or worse kind). Unlike the taciturn Marilyn – her early years s made her own
It can be argued that no woman has been examined more closely. She received book lists from public intellectuals, biographers and fiction writers — not just Mailer, but Gloria Steinem and Joyce Carroll Oates, whose novels, Blonde, will get the movie treatment next month starring Ana de Armas. She’s a rude American over-the-top figure standing in Madame Tussauds, her skirt blowing forever upwards, and her famous dress in Ripley’s Believe It or Not! (More solemnly, on the Met Gala red carpet last spring). her death 05 Years ago, a barbiturate overdose in her Brentwood bed created a conspiracy theorist cottage industry— Is it the CIA? murder? – Some people who had only brief contact with her made a living by talking about it. We could even Google her picture at the morgue if we wanted to. It’s easy to see what she meant when Megan Fox triumphantly got her a tattoo, then removed it, saying, “I don’t want to attract this negative energy in my life.” Marilyn’s reputation was—and is now—giant but lonely, enduring but impersonal. Who really sees the truth and is willing to wear it as a totem?
It was, finally, reading her private life that showed me both her successes and her tragedies. Marilyn’s public persona is playful, seductive, and purposeful. She poses as she lives in the ecstasy of eternal summer, the voice of her breathing conveys an appealing lack of need – but her private life is full of pain. Abuse, addiction and abandonment defined her until, at 05, she is dead and forever haunted by the fantasies of all of us Americans. Thirty-six years — an age that didn’t seem to be decisive when I first learned her story. But now here I am – Semi, to be exact – I understand once you go beyond your amazings. become05 is to understand that while more life can be expected, some things cannot. If you don’t have kids, either you’ve made that decision or you’ve entered a panic-filled hope phase. If you’re not yet seen as what you believe — you feel that people don’t know how serious or powerful or sexy you are — you’ve realized that changing that will be an uphill struggle. Thirty-six is an age without proper support structures and confidence, it’s easy to roll over, say “fuck it”, and go back to sleep. It seems, based on all the all-too-available photos of the bed where she was found dead, that’s what Marilyn did.
Privately, Marilyn suffers – not just from constant anxiety and depression, doctors are happy to treat with these medications (where I can relate, relying on off-the-shelf chemical shields to get through Fears of my old age s). She also treated severe endometriosis, a A reproductive disorder that is still badly misunderstood, which is why I expelled my uterus in old age .Marilyn was obsessed with being a mother, believing it would heal the loneliness that plagued her. When she was having her appendix removed , she was rumored to have put a note on her stomach begging them not to take it Walk her ovaries. Marilyn’s miscarriage in 99 (At the time, Palm Springs newspapers Desert Sun reported she was pregnant five to six weeks,” Curvy screen star being pushed into hospital on a stretcher”) is said to be a major factor in depression, which accelerated her drug addiction and plagued her movie swan song, The Misfits.